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Fuck you. More air for me to breathe.\u201d<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center has-white-color has-midnight-gradient-background has-text-color has-background has-link-color wp-elements-7afed7450d54ea13a5a5b4bdba8378f7\">Strange as it may seem, I am thankful for this family member&#8217;s insensitivity. It showed the woman I prayed to Goddess I would never become, and it fueled my passion for being compassionate! Hearing that was part in holding this poem to myself a long time, and now the loyalty to nonsense is over. I dare to say she wasn\u2019t the only one. At the time, I felt like I was surrounded by people who were hoping I would off myself so that certain truths wouldn\u2019t come out. So that jealousies could be satisfied&#8230;so that I cold stop making people\u2019s demons itch. What stopped me? Spiritual intervention. Often times, empaths have this painful rites of passage into self-understanding. This was loooong before I ever dreamed it would become more apparent that I was born to be a healer. A major part of being a spiritual healer includes constantly healing self first, then healing others. The bravest of us do so out in the open, so that all who see, read, feel and experience my healing works can see the ugly parts of self healing. Be inspired to do the same as you enjoy this poem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<a class=\"copyrighted-badge\" title=\"Copyrighted.com Registered &amp; Protected\" target=\"_blank\" href=\"https:\/\/app.copyrighted.com\/work\/KziC6owXyYqXFxmN\" rel=\"noopener\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" alt=\"Copyrighted.com Registered &amp; Protected\" border=\"0\" width=\"125\" height=\"25\" srcset=\"https:\/\/static.copyrighted.com\/badges\/125x25\/06_1_2x.png 2x\" src=\"https:\/\/static.copyrighted.com\/badges\/125x25\/06_1.png\"><\/a><script src=\"https:\/\/static.copyrighted.com\/badges\/helper.js\"><\/script>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center has-white-color has-midnight-gradient-background has-text-color has-background has-link-color wp-elements-ab4199b44a632dda3f89a984fe3fe8c5\"><em><strong>I painted this a depressed shade of dark blue for you\u2026 listen.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center has-white-color has-midnight-gradient-background has-text-color has-background has-link-color wp-elements-93f9bcdecf78002136f622323149cf75\">Necktie, Navy Blue<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center has-white-color has-midnight-gradient-background has-text-color has-background has-link-color wp-elements-034f2712af9d37c1b223a101b9b6d1c0\">Reflective of my soul<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center has-white-color has-midnight-gradient-background has-text-color has-background has-link-color wp-elements-6b8f0112f30b6c4133cd8d7a1c3c47f3\">colors sure speak the truth<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center has-white-color has-midnight-gradient-background has-text-color has-background has-link-color wp-elements-64df39632f8106f2419a062d44665349\">tied tight round<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center has-white-color has-midnight-gradient-background has-text-color has-background has-link-color wp-elements-41b821422a9f30dab9f679baccd804f6\">a delicate neck that once<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center has-white-color 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has-midnight-gradient-background has-text-color has-background has-link-color wp-elements-d7f2759c7674f1940a12c3b296a22443\">a choice of asphyxiation<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center has-white-color has-midnight-gradient-background has-text-color has-background has-link-color wp-elements-06dbc3015ea21d44ec45e1b541ff50eb\">a dark closet<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center has-white-color has-midnight-gradient-background has-text-color has-background has-link-color wp-elements-7b233685e6626a6f13048e2b340e9a01\">a concentration<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center has-white-color has-midnight-gradient-background has-text-color has-background has-link-color wp-elements-1f9a5e58ffe65839c007618cf2ead5c0\">of trying not to breathe<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center has-white-color has-midnight-gradient-background has-text-color has-background has-link-color wp-elements-3e828608b953b03fde6dbb69ae9e5d4e\">building up the nerve<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p 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has-background has-link-color wp-elements-3a61a602fe99e7dc01f4e6d110a3db4a\">a million reasons<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center has-white-color has-midnight-gradient-background has-text-color has-background has-link-color wp-elements-bbaf6a3a51410e6a9f5d47130b7bcb44\">I couldn\u2019t put in words to fight<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center has-white-color has-midnight-gradient-background has-text-color has-background has-link-color wp-elements-b8924e7891246e874a8cc0decccc1c7b\">ripped off the tie<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center has-white-color has-midnight-gradient-background has-text-color has-background has-link-color wp-elements-881f94d683ef9cd05224f4ce38254a3f\">I ran outside<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center has-white-color has-midnight-gradient-background has-text-color has-background has-link-color wp-elements-c083a39f312ce2627f4201422821ae09\">into heat of a cool night<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center has-white-color 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